I attempted to get confidence before the halloween party I went to. I drove there, and then guzzled as much vodka as I could before entering; vile stuff. And as I waited in line, I could feel myself getting light-headed. That’s a good sign!
Unfortunately that feeling went away after only half an hour. Which shows I’ll need to consume more alcohol, and keep consuming it, while I’m on vacation until I feel comfortable socializing with people again.
I usually enjoy halloween the most of all the nights of the year. It is the one night I can go out to a bar and socialize. Because I usually have a cool costume so people will talk to me. And I can always talk about their costumes. I guess it’s the internet effect; it’s easy to be confident when you are behind a mask.
The other preparations could have gone better as well. I wasn’t looking forward to going out (never do) so I didn’t start getting my costume ready until it was late. I have a good demon costume, but the last time I really remember wearing it was in 2007. Well, it hasn’t aged that well. Or, probably I haven’t.
The suit itself is feeling tighter, and since it was tight to begin with so that the wings would stay on, I didn’t think the wings would actually fit. They even felt rather floppy too. I decided to go without. The vampire fangs look like they’ve yellowed; ditched them. I couldn’t be bothered to put on any makeup to accentuate the demonic.
The contact lenses I usually wear; I wasn’t sure about them. I have two pairs, one from before the laser eye surgery and one after. I assumed I was putting on the post-surgery pair, but I was pretty unfocused when I put them in. I still think they are the non-prescription, but they are just old. I’ll try and find the other pair.
I think I’m going to have to face facts and try to get a new costume.