Last night got a bit weird. I noticed that I was getting angry over very minor concerns. This was probably due to lack of sleep. I did not like this attitude, so I focused a lot on not being angry. This had the inadvertent effect of making me start to overthink everything.
After an evening performance, I decided to self-medicate myself out of this state. Within a short period of time I had three to four alcoholic drinks. I’m guessing I must not have eaten a lot either because this hit me hard. In a fairly good way. I got very emotional and started confessing hopes and dreams to a good friend. They tried to cut me off shortly after that. Tried to, but I could tell the cup of juice wasn’t alcoholic because it didn’t taste bad.
However, that confession was very useful. I opened up and got a release. The rest of the night was great. I danced, was social, things were looking nice.
By three in the morning I was up for an expedition to the only place that had food at that hour. Three of us, the most sober, went and cleared out the stock of food available. We brought it to the others and then had our own private hamburger meal. And then bed.
So in conclusion, alcohol did help me loosen up. I think I want to try it again.
2014-10-22 4:20