I wish I could be more immediate with my emotions
When I am with people, my brain has a tendency to turn off. I don’t overthink what I am doing. It is only when I have had time to reflect on my thoughts do I realize that something may have happened that upset me.
Which made today bad. Something happened yesterday that only after sleeping on it, did I realize the betrayal that had happened. If I had been in the moment, I may have been able to do something about it and talked it out. Instead it simmered all of today. Put me into a bit of depression too.
I don’t like this.
Hopefully sleeping on it tonight will make tomorrow better.
But, if I was a more passionate person, I would get into arguments more.