Okay. I was up too late yesterday. I have noticed that I’m cranky.
For most of the day the crankiness has been manifesting as worry about the vacation. This comes in two ways:
- Financial
My credit card bill came yesterday. I still have a lot of money but this one took a big bite out of it, what with the eye surgery, plane tickets and tour. I’ve been calculating it in my head and I will run out of money. At least I will in my checking account. I have money in investments, but I would rather not liquidate those. I think the solution is to talk to the bank and see if I can get a credit line or overdraft protection. I’m sure they’ll be able to suggest something. - Social
I went to dance lessons today. It didn’t go well. Maybe it is the bad mood?
I got there at 8:00 and the instructor wasn’t there. I sat down and noticed how much I was dreading this. I was hoping the teacher wouldn’t show up. She did at 8:30, and we got into the lesson. I had trouble getting a partner; I guess some women wanted to dance with each other instead of a man. The partners I did get never really seemed to want to look me in the eye, looking anywhere else but the face. Or they didn’t speak English.
None of the above fills me with confidence about my ability to be social in Europe. If I know people, I’m comfortable and can be entertaining. If I don’t, which will be everyone in the continent, then I just don’t have fun. If I can’t even handle a bar where I speak the language…
Am I really right to go on this vacation? - Readiness
I haven’t gotten everything ready for this vacation. Planning has fallen to the wayside. I am easily distracted, which hasn’t helped.
Not looking for a pity party. Just making observations.